Today was my birthday, this may sound gramatically incorrect but it is just how it all seems to be for me. An overwhelming feeling of being so far behind events, of not belonging to any period of time fills me at this very moment of the day. Maybe this is how it feels to grow one year older without having really grown at many considerations!. What I mean by considerations is not necessarily related to maturity or wisdom, I'm quite aware of the category of age I'm about to enter. But it is mostly the feeling of not having made things different from what they used to be one year before now, of not having attained this slight difference I wished could just occur in my life.
Change may be subtle, even unnoticeable sometimes but it feels to be lacking wherever it was meant to happen. I don't know what is this change I would have wanted for myself, I'm far from reaching everything I have aspired for, but I do at the same time ignore what precise change do I need to feel in priority.
Sometimes I come even to ask myself whether I have put too much goals into perspective that I'm finally reaching none of them. Where does this interference in aims just come from? Is it my will to have everything in hand without knowing what everything is truly about. Do I really have what this change takes? I've been asking myself these questions at different stages of my existence, but today i feel they are asserting themselves more than ever. Maybe the real change doesn't even need to happen to me but to the people I'm dealing with on a daily base, since the change that truly breeds good things into one's life and help us fulfill inner and outer containement, is the one that gradually finds its way to us
From all this things, one thing is fore sure: I don't feel like being 20 today!
Change may be subtle, even unnoticeable sometimes but it feels to be lacking wherever it was meant to happen. I don't know what is this change I would have wanted for myself, I'm far from reaching everything I have aspired for, but I do at the same time ignore what precise change do I need to feel in priority.
Sometimes I come even to ask myself whether I have put too much goals into perspective that I'm finally reaching none of them. Where does this interference in aims just come from? Is it my will to have everything in hand without knowing what everything is truly about. Do I really have what this change takes? I've been asking myself these questions at different stages of my existence, but today i feel they are asserting themselves more than ever. Maybe the real change doesn't even need to happen to me but to the people I'm dealing with on a daily base, since the change that truly breeds good things into one's life and help us fulfill inner and outer containement, is the one that gradually finds its way to us
From all this things, one thing is fore sure: I don't feel like being 20 today!
