It's been a while...

Having not posted for about six months time, I feel unfair towards that passion i once thought insatiable of keeping a blog and updating it with "highlights" of my life -i still don't know what are the things i've been through that i should call so; but i guess i mustn't have had many of them!
I know that I happen to go through some "neglect assaults" -quite compulsively- that prevent me from undertaking any kind of action likely to last in time, but i mainly wanted to put more order into my ideas through blogging, as if the thought of them being somewhere here, under my sight and not only confined somewhere into my mind, will help me get a tighter grasp on things.
But i'm glad i'm finally getting the opportunity to write this, actually i've been awaiting for more than a month to retrieve some of the spirit that i'd allow me to add that precise entry and assume some of the reality that i'd be putting in it.
A reality that killed much of the magic of the last entry, and that left me grieve over every word in it.
A reality that will leave me carry the memory of two of the best years i've ever spent or that i'd just be spending in my life!Let's face it people ( or shall i say self), i'm leaving the school where i spent two amazing years, have had the closest friendships to my heart, and got over the dreadful feeling of failure i thought would be paralyzing for life!
I know i've been longing for my new school for what feels like 4 years now, but the pain that change has caused me, got me rethink the dearest wishes to my heart and wish it hadn't just come true!
I pray everyday for that change to be for the better, i'm dreading delusion more than ever. OMG, I so need to get over this!
I promise i'll keep up with the updates (if anyone ever cares reading this), I know my need for writing next time will be so urging.
Regards,